Comfortably sweet

You don't need no pills to keep you down love

just need someone else around

so everything's complete

comfortably sweet

don't you ever leave.

Human beings are a very selfish, conceited species. And love, you know, is just an illusion. Because you cannot afford to be too conceited or selfish in a relationship. It's not really a match made in heaven. Or you love yourself or you love another, right? And yeah, I know all the bibidi babaidi about sharing and giving and accepting and all that. But we really do that for ourselves, not others. You accept faults of others not because of them but because that's the only way you can cope with them. And you know, all the sacrifices you do and everything you give it's not free, really. In the end you are always, always repaid with love. Ohhh, looove the most cherished thing ever. This is clever. It's very catholic-oriented. How would you make people to do good stuff? Convince them they'll get something in return! And of course, of course non-material is much much better than material, of course! Bullshit!!!

Because if I got a penny for everything I have to tolerate in the end I'd be rich, you know. But love. That gets taken away from you so easily. Everything you worked hard for. Puf! Evaporated! And it's not even your foult! Well... it is, since you are the idiot who got caught in. It's like paying taxes. You know. You give and give and they only tell you it's for a good cause but you never know where your money went. And it never comes back. But would anyone pay taxes if it wasn't obligate? Yeah.

Well...I started to write this because I wanted to talk about cheating. Why do people do that to one another? Well I don't know, and it sometimes seem they don't either. But...for one thing because they are selfish. And it's not like that's monstrous, it's just in us. Everybody, really. It's not a sin to get what you want in life. But for some (to me yet unknown) reason we manage to screw up a bunch of other people on the way. And it's because we don't really know what we want. Like children, running around; oh look a candy! I want the candy!!! Give me the caaaandddyyy! Ohhh a lollypop! Well that's quite something different! I never wanted candy in the first place! Give me the lolly!!!

And we don't. We don't know. But our wishes are our responsibility. If it's good to get what you want than it's even better to take responsibility for it. It's reasonable. And it's not too hard to get, is it?

O.K. people make mistakes. But that's life. And it's you who should suffer for your mistakes, not others. And it's so ugly to hurt others in such a selfish way. You know, someone you loved or thought you love (no difference, really). And I think I just got my point.

Oh it just gives me grief writing these things, I don't even know why I do it.

Still, I have to admit (after I made myself look like a total pessimist) I do think love exist. But it doesn't contain anything of what I wrote above. I don't know what it consists but that's a debate I'll have with myself some other time.